I should not talk

Do you ever have one of those days... Ya know.
When you are like- truly. I should not talk.
Like..at all.

Because everything that is about to start pouring out, is anything but profitable.

Please tell me you know what I am saying!!

This day. 

I just keep hoping it will end, but then the thought of tomorrow makes me want to hold on to today a little tighter, making it last just a little longer.

Listen. I am not a typically dramatic person.

Ask my kids.

I'm that mom who told my 3-year-old to stop his crying after he had rolled out of bed onto the floor, only to find out he had broken his collar bone. 

I know.
Mother-of-the-year award.
I'm just not into dragging things out, digging up drama, or making things look worse than they are.

I tend to do the opposite. 

And then there comes a point where I just want to scream.

No. Seriously. Like literally.

And today was one of those days.

The kind of day that I felt like this whole -running around like crazy for the last month deal, has finally come around and slapped me right in the face.

But the thing is, I didn't even have time to run to my room and just hide under the covers for a few hours.
No.
That's the whole point here.
Monday is my busy day.
Which is followed by Tuesday..my painfully long day.
And then comes Wednesday...ok, ok. I think you get my point.

NOW - the very very last thing I ever want to do here is whine and complain.

Ain't nobody got time to be reading that kind of stuff!

So I will get to my point.
This morning, I started my day with my Bible.
The way I always know I need to.
And tonight, I ended my day with Faith Bible Institute, talking about the books of Deuteronomy and Joshua.
Which was perfect. I mean like, literally. Absolutely. Completely and Totally perfect.

It's what I need to be reminded of every day.

Obedience brings blessings.

I need to obey what God tells me to do regardless of how I feel.

When I feel tired?
I need to obey.

When I feel emotionally drained?
I need to obey.

When I feel sad?
I need to obey.

When I feel overwhelmed?
I need to obey.

It's so simple that it's actually annoying.
Right?!

God is the one who is in control.
I am just here living my life under His authority.

I don't know why people fight authority so much.
I don't know why people want to try and do things their own way so much.

We can't possibly think that our way is better than God's way.

So tonight.
Well, for one thing. I should not talk.  (I think we have established that)
I should not talk until I am totally under control the way God wants me to be.
And then...
I am already deciding what my attitude is going to be when I wake up.

I am choosing joy.
Ahead of time.

Because I know that when I hear my alarm go off, my first thought is not automatically going to be JoY!
But I know that it is possible!

The verses I am memorizing this month are:

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamaties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Tonight.
I am feeling weak.
But apparently, that is a good thing.
Because when I am weak, I am strong.
Strong in the one who is in complete control if I just let Him control me.

Hopefully I will be able to talk tomorrow.

Here we go Tuesday.
I am ready for you.
But please. please...for the love of Peter, Paul and Mary...don't be snowing.
I beg you.
Ok. Thanks.

Goodnight everyone!