When you feel alone

Isn't it the strangest feeling to feel totally and completely alone? 
And I don't mean physically alone.

That's the strange part about it...

I think the times we feel the most alone 

is when we are surrounded by the most people.

I know that I am loved.

But that does not take away the times that I feel completely and utterly alone.

Alone in my way of thinking.

Alone in my view on life.

Alone in my likes.

Alone in my dislikes.

I think we all have times like this.

And I think it is a trap to get us discontented, down on ourselves, unsatisfied, and desperate.

I was recently talking to a friend of mine about some of the ways I feel alone.

I can feel like people want to go out with me one-on-one, but when it comes to the times when they want to have a really good time?

They want their real friends.

I remember feeling this way pretty strongly when I was with a group of women, and I thought I was pretty good friends with some of them.

But what I didn't take into consideration, was that there were also other women there who were...better than me?
Or...more interesting to talk to.
So it left me feeling like the outcast.

It left me feeling like I will never be "big time" enough to fit in with them.

Now, to be clear. No one ever said that to me.

It is just how I was feeling.

And that's when it hit me.

We all perceive people to be things that they very well may. not. be.

I can look at any given person, and make my judgment on who they are based on the way they come across, and that is just plain totally unfair.

What if they are having a bad day?

What if they are the one who feels alone but doesn't know how to express it?

And so that is why I decided.

The next time I feel alone, I need to remember what the truth is.

Remember the other day? I was talking about speaking truth in your heart?

That's it.

That's kind of the answer to all of life's questions.

There is absolute truth. There is.

And those are the truths I need to be speaking to myself. 

In my heart, in my thoughts and then out loud.

Jesus will never leave me.

I am loved.

I am accepted.

I am chosen.

God fights for me.

God sings over me.

God forgives me.

God sees my tears.

God has a plan and a purpose for my life.

God is directing my steps.

This, my friend, is why Scripture memory is so vital in our lives.

Because the times I am feeling the worst? 

Those are often the times that I feel the least like reading my Bible!

And so more than ever I need all those verses I have memorized over my life to come back to my head!

To fill me up. To remind me of truth.

It is way too easy to start thinking that I am alone. 

I am not alone.

And I need to be careful not to fall into the trap of self-pity, which leads me to start becoming discontented, down on myself and unhappy.

The feeling of loneliness is a trap. Don't fall for it.

It's a trap that leads to ugly bitterness, resentment and self-pity. Where is that trap going to leave you? 

Remind yourself of truth tonight. A truth that will bring you joy, peace and contentment.

You are not alone.