i have been pondering the idea of how God speaks to me for quite a while.
i want to share my rambling thoughts, and hear yours.
i have always heard about how much faith Abraham had since he just up and moved when God told him to. (obviously the rachelle standard version) but let's face it. if God spoke to me in a loud, booming voice saying..."rachelle, pack your suitcase and get in the car. I will tell you where to drive"
i think i would, right?
the difficulty i have, is getting in the car and going based on virtually nothing more than a feeling.
what is so confusing to me is deciphering what is God's voice, and what is rachelle's loud, overpowering voice (aka satan)
so here are my thoughts just gushing out all over the place in no particular order.
does God speak clearly today? and how do i know when it is God and when it is me?
when there is a "closed door", does that mean that God doesn't want me to do it, or does it mean that God wants me to push a little harder and open that darn door up??
see...i was brought up baptist. you know, the ones that believe that God only speaks quietly? like that if you are feeling emotional about something, that feeling is nothing more than a feeling, and will probably pass?
so what i am asking i guess is, does God even speak personally now?
if you have been reading my blog for any length of time, you will know that everything i believe to be true is from the Bible.
i do NOT, i repeat, DO NOT ever want to get to the point that i think there are only certain topics that the Bible relates to, and some things we just have to figure out on our own.
with that being said, i know the verse in John 10:27. "My sheep hear my voice (the NIV says listen to...interesting) and I know them and they follow me."
so. i am Jesus' sheep. i know that. so it says that i WILL hear His voice. but HOW??????
i just want your thoughts.
i don't want christian cliches. i don't.
i don't want your experiences.
i want GOD'S word, ya know? no offense, it's not that i am not interested in your stories, because i am. it's just that i really want to know, based on the Bible how i can hear God's voice.
i guess the thing that confuses me is the fact that the way people usually say they know is when they feel a peace. well. my heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked. couldn't my heart produce that feeling too??
i'm not talking about things that are sin issues, obviously. i am just talking about ministries...house purchases...things like that.
and i am not doubting God here, or questioning Him. that's what's bringing me to all these thoughts...the very fact that i DO NOT question Him!
i know that what He says is always true, so if He says i can hear His voice, then i know i CAN...i just want to make sure i am hearing the right voice.
i want to grow.
i make it my goal to please Jesus, and i make no apologies for that.
so let me have it. give me your thoughts.