have you ever heard God's Word called convicting?
Hebrews says this
"For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."
Psalms says that our secret sins are set before God in the light of His presence.
i have to say that this morning, my sins were set before God, and it sure judged my thoughts and ATTITUDES.
in a painful kind of way.
see...there are times in my life, when i think i am treated unfairly.
i have times when people hurt me, and i don't understand why.
i feel like certain people should treat me certain ways...
and when they don't?
i just don't get it.
maybe i use the fact that i am "hurt" to kind of justify the startings of bitter thoughts and emotions towards them.
because, after all...they have God's Word too, and should know how to treat me!
I might even excuse my bad attitudes by saying that i am not hurt for myself, but for my boys, or my husband.
ya. i started doing that yesterday.
it ran over into today.
not like i was up stewing and angry all night or anything, but i will say that facebook doesn't help in this area.
when i feel like i am fine and over something, then i see a comment that reminds me -
oh yaaa....i can not BELIEVE that person did that or said that!
what did i do to deserve this??
and blah, blah, blah.
see? it even looks ugly typing it!
isn't it weird that you can actually have a physical feeling of...i don't know, discomfort?
thinking about having the right thoughts towards someone can literally bring discomfort to my body. like i am fighting within myself!
(which according to galatians is accurate! my sinful nature and the spirit are literally fighting against each other inside of me!)
so anyways...after i was done spewing out all my frustrations and ugliness
(which, of course, was my right, i mean...i didn't do anything to deserve this! ha!)
i read my devotional for today, September 14, 2011.
here's a little excerpt from it.
WOW . I COULD HAVE WRITTEN THIS EXCEPT WHERE IT SAYS WOMAN IT WOULD HAVE TO MAN BUT OTHER THAN THAT THE SSAME. UNFORTUNATELY I GET HURT TO EASILY. THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE CAN HURT ME EASILY THAN OTHERS. SO THANX I NEEDED THIS.
ReplyDeleteLOVE this!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks kiddo for writing this. You are gifted in writing and blessed to be where you are today. I love you.
ReplyDeleteWow! I needed this more than ever. I struggle a lot in this area too. Facebook, as you pointed out, is definitely not helpful in this area. I have eliminated Facebook from my life as I just felt it as a bad spot in my life and a hindrance to my growth as a Christian. There are positives to it but so much more was negative for me. What is even harder is when it is your child that is hurting from the same wrongs, trying to be strong yourself and control your emotions and thoughts while teaching him to do the same, though he has every right to be hurt and angry. Though, the Lord has used those opportunities to grow both of us together and to minister to my son even more. Sorry I wrote a book, this post was just very personal and strengthening for me. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing this... I really needed the prompting to nurture good thoughts about others. Its really hard when some has hurt you to think good thoughts, but definitely what God wants for us. Thanks Rachelle!
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